Saturday, May 7, 2011

An actual post!

Wow, I haven't written an actual post in a while!

I have a good excuse! Actually, a couple good excuses. Okay, maybe one good excuse and one lame excuse.

Work is ramping up at Hitpoint. My job description says "animator" but the past couple of weeks I've been a programmer (I do suck at programming.) and now I'm getting into game design. A few weeks ago I was asked to come up with some mockups for a football game (WITH A TWIST!). I'll see if I can get permission to post those up here.

One of the cons of getting to work from home is that I pretty much am working all the time. For working at a game studio, I really don't have that much time to play games (besides the odd play-testing every once in a while, but even then I'm a bit busy for that).

So yeah, time is an issue. I haven't actually drawn for myself in a while. Not to say that this is bad because I really like my work, but my own personal work has taken a backseat to what I do for the studio (on the plus side, it almost sounds like I know a thing or two about game design. I blame reading internet blogs)

Okay, so that was the actual excuse. The lame excuse is that I've lost my ability to draw in what used to be my own style.

The thing about my "style" is that, like acting, I need to be able to FEEL what I'm drawing. Each line I drew had a certain quality of energy to it because I felt that energy as I drew it. Unfortunately, due to certain events in my life (I'll leave it at "no word in the English language does justice to how vile this person is"), I've completely lost that energy. It's kind of weird, actually.

Exactly one year ago, the defining quality I'd say that described me would be "Dreamer."
Today, I have no idea what that quality would be. Doesn't mean I still can't push myself really hard to make good work, I know I'm just lacking the same energy as before, like I'm stuck in reality. Maybe it's part of growing up.

Wait a minute, does this mean I'm old?

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